For every of YOU ♥

Looking out from the window from my room, recalling the first time I moved in to here, and there was 4 years back!
How time flies! It's just like a bullet train! 4 years memories in Kampar, I'll never forget.
The first year in Kampar, I remembered how I wanted to get graduated and finish my degree but until now, I just realize I started to wish time could turn back.
Pardon me, I really wants to get graduated on time in this year without any obstacles, but what I'm longing is my precious time in Kampar with my come-and-along friends.

No doubt, in this 4 years, indeed friends come-and-go in my life; coming to my life, being a good friend that I could never ask much for and then leaving me, just like that.
I felt sad of course, but I know, this is a real world.
Friend will never stay long, and friendship does got it expiry date.
The first lesson for me in Kampar is about friendship. I see how this friendship could simply rotate in just less than a day, and life is not a bed of roses in Kampar as always.
Besides coping with social life, study is the second pressure to me!

I'm not an excellent student forever in my studies, but I just know I never want to disappointed myself, my goal, my family and towards all the friends that cares about me.
So, in this 4 years, I never really play a fool in my studies, takes thing for granted and indeed works out more as each semester approaches.
Every semester that I've gone through throughout my study in UTAR, I was getting pressure particularly with arithmetic!

I thought taking Business Administration, I will face lesser of arithmetic, but still every semester, there was at least a subject involving arithmetic.
That's was my biggest weakest and enemy in my studies!
I still remembered, during Y1S2, I need to cope with 2 accounts, 2 quantitative subjects and 3 theories papers.
If I couldn't get survived during that semester, I think life would change by now!
That particular semester was really painful, teary nights, sleepless nights, and I really wish to thanks to her! She is the one never stop encouraging and by my side.
Even, past few months, I had problem in my relationship, she still stands by me, protecting me and taking good care of me! How could I ever express my indefinite thanks to you for coming into my life. How could I ever thanks to Him for creating a bridge between us, and get us connected! You are really a best friend that I'll never regret knowing and I really wish this friendship will last long. Please promise me to do that, Ms. Shirley Kwong Chee Ai!

Life still gets on although might not be a bed of roses during this entire 4 years. What I've learned, I will always remember and treasure it! Life ahead just about begin to start, though I might not know how results will ought to be, but I really pray everyday that I'm able to graduated on time, this year. Uncertainty arises, will even make me to outperform and do my very own best! Fingers crossed, that everything will goes smoothly as how it supposed to be.

Though life is tough in UTAR, but I really glad that I've known variety of friends in my life. Some will study with you, some will play with you, some will pillow-talk with you, and of course there are indeed numerous of categories of friends just suited for you, regardless of any mood you had. For me, if I wish to have a sweet escape, definitely there are friends that can bring laughter and make me forget the reality for a while, and thanks to them, there's how I can work out from my pressure. As I'm not good expressing in words, I just want to let you all know that, regardless of any friends that I've known, I'll treasure and always keep in my memory, not wish to show any priority to any bunch of friends and neglected any side as well ;)
I ♥ all my friends!

Badminton Superstars' gang, which added me in their group in Facebook. At first, I thought, what the heck is that, and felt awkward to be invited to a group which I barely even know each and every person in that group. Seeing them updating and spam the wall before I knowing them, I felt wanna say something inside that group, but due to my personality which will freeze from doing anything with peoples I'm not familiar with, I hesitated and just be one of the stalker in that particular group. Knowing them is through badminton, and the first time playing with them is in Rakan Muda's court. From that moment, we played frequently and obsessively due I need training for the inter-faculty badminton tournament in UTAR. At one time, we even played until 2am in the morning and straight for mamak until 4am something, and I still remembered I will have class on 8am on that day. Though it's tiring, but I have fun with every each of them. Though the period of knowing them is barely 2 months which is not considered long, but all of them are simply awesome ♥

Throughout my studies, I also feel grateful that there is always someone that could offer help in my studies when I encountered difficulties. The last group of friend which I've only known for a day which is the last day of Week 14 although they have been my lecture mates for 3 years! They are simply awesome, and never reluctant or hesitate to offer me help in business taxation and allowed me to join their group study. Although you all might not come across to my blog to see this, but here I sincerely wish all of you all the best in future undertakings!

To put all words for the freaking 4 years' life in Kampar is really not enough and I might need to come out with a book, perhaps, but each of every bits will forever restored in my eternal memory and never ever get deleted. This thing I can assured! Looking forwards for the new chapter in my life...

Thanks for everything, thanks for the memories each and every of you that have given to me, thanks for the ups and downs; THANK YOU is the 8 simple letter words which I could offer to each and every of you sincerely! All the best to all my friends in whatever you guys are doing, and must always remember me!!!

P/s : God, thanks for all the memories you have given to me! Please continuing to bless me to graduate on time!

Current Me :)

So, this is the current me, with Michele Mika camwhoring at library in Week 2 of this semester!
And I blonded my hair! Yes! This is true, because the color which is chosen by my dearest sister is "very Light-Golden Blonde"
Luckily the outcome is still acceptable, if not I guess I will be the laughing stock until I get back to the original color. Heh! :)
So, do you like it or you prefer my hair in black?

mcD Run 2010

I can't even believe that me, Ng Kah Yee @ 5plus2 @ nKy successfully completed 7km mcD run just now located at Dataran Merdeka Kuala Lumpur! Woots~ I feel so proud of myself that I'm able to nail it. Fyi, I know is not a big fuss about that, but if you ever know me, you will know why I'm so hype about that (",)

-Before depart to LRT-

-Finding "treasure"-

Together with cousin Ade and her bf and my coursemate, SukLin, we departed around 7am in the morning to the Wangsa's LRT, and by that time, we saw quite a number of contestants with the numbering on their mcD's tee. By that time, we haven't got ours as it is kept by someone that registered for us, I assumed. Getting excited to see more people coming to hook into the LRT with mcD's tee :)

-Not forgetting, camwhoring is a must! -

-The hype me-

-SukLin-

-Lovey dovey couple- :)

-Those that are going to run too-

Once we reached, we saw they were hundreds of people started to run from the starting line. This means that we were late to join at the starting line, but is alright and we just follow the groups and started our run!

We ran, we jogged, we walked and finally after more or less than an hour, we reached the final line. Can't imagine what should I do if SukLin didn't accompany me to run. First, cousin Ade ran damn fast and ditched us far far away :P Second, my leg's muscle started to feel ache and I started to vomit :(  Third, the authorities incharged for the whole event and logistics are damn poor. Waters are only given after left approximately 2km. Fourth, St. John ambulance are just so shit! They don't have those Counterpain or whatever medi that can help me to relieves my muscular aches.

Anyway, I'm proud to say that I did it! Wulala~

Yes! :)

Night without Light

The night, before exam week but yet close to the study week, there is a sudden blackout in the place where I stay which left me no choice but to spend my time at the lake side with several friends of mine, beering while enjoying the cool breeze. 

Kampar no doubt is a dead town for most of the people, but for me I simply adore that for the simpleness of it.

Enjoy the night where after dinner, we went for the K-session just because the adrenaline rush for it, and once we decided to go back after everything, we been told that there is no electricity, thus we decided to buy beers and chilled near the lakeside. FYI, I'm still a good girl that ain't into or addict with beers or whatsoever liquors :P

 -The lakeside-

 -Ryan @ LCC- 

 -Jason- 

 

 -Michele-

 -Ben Hew-

He finally let me to take a more decent photo of him after so many snaps.

 

 -I need no introduction-

By, the way, this is not related to the content of the post, but this is my uni's library. I just found out that my library is not that "bad" to me during night time, and yes, I study at there til late at that night :P

Imma still so freaking awake though now it is 5.53 am. Been insomnia-ing quite some time and I seriously need to overcome it, or else, my body will seriously damaged or easily get old which is something bad for me :(

Kickoff the "Unlucky" Semester

It's quite some time I refrain myself from doing any update cause I don't feel they joy of sharing my ups and downs in public. My life is just pathetic, the tendency of downs is way higher than the ups, so is good not to being emotionally displayed in public about my feeling, everything that causes dismay to others as well.

Just officially end the "toughest" semester in my entire degree life for me, everything happened have changed me, physically and mentally.I have no idea why I can become like this, become so passive and no confident in everything that I'm doing.Yet, I can be so calm when I don't even know how to cope with my examination as in I have zero knowledge in this semester. Yes, I've wasted this entire 14 weeks without achieving anything! I know, is pathetic!

Still, exam did ended anyway. What I can do now is just to look forward and buckle up myself to move on, never look back, improve myself, improve in handling my EQ and most importantly, be tough and strong to face whatever difficulties that might arise in future. I hope so! I really hope I can be that strong again, find back the lost me.

It's holiday and is a month holiday but I don't feel the excitement of it, nothing there to be excited this semester break. Previously, I will get excited and anticipate as this is the time we can get closer to each other, but not now anymore. Thus, Imma as well get used of it for the rest of my 2 more semesters.


I'm clueless of pressing my keyboard for the next words, sentences and paragraphs as I scare I will get dwell into making this post seems negative.


So, let's not plan things but goes according to what God determines... will it be better? Afterall, life is full of uncertainty and I just know I shall be happy-go-lucky like what Kenny Nam suggested? Or to be sarcastically don't care anything, just be sarcastic throughout my entire life?


By the way, I owe a big thank you for some of my dearest friends that no matter what, always by my side to help me to get through when I'm down and always be there to encourage me without leaving me, help up with my studies for this semester and everything or even comforting me after I teared randomly without fail. Names shall not be mention as if you are the one, and you are reading it, yes, it is you that I mean! I'm glad that in my life, I have you all and I truly appreciated this friendship and what you all have done for me too! I will work hard to be better for not wanted to disappoint you all! Fingers crossed ok?

Seriously untitled for the randomness of it, and basically just the voice from the heart

Exactly 2 months passed...
Its been the lowest point when myself needs to keep on reminding myself, or to be worst self-slapping to wake up myself to get real, to face the reality.
Thanks to those who keep accompanying me throughout my weakest moment, never ending concerning about me to let me know that, everyone is just so care about me, I sincerely know and appreciated that!
All this while, I just let my emotion to carry me away, far far away to where I don't know where it landed and just died at a certain point, for not willing to move or to get rid or wake up.
I don't have the passion in doing anything, I lost confident in most of the things, and I felt that I'm just a loser.
I hate to be alone now, for I will keep on put on my thinking cap and think of many many things.
I hate when the night come I just couldn't get myself to sleep. It's been 2 months I can't really sleep, and it's been 2 months I tears to sleep most of the time.
It's been tormenting me but I believe I'm strong enough and tough as usual no matter what happen.
I really hope I am, and basically, is just law of attraction, when you believe that is possible, then it will be possible. Just as simple as that! Right?!
I just don't understand why and for most of the time, isn't human being always never ending finding an answer to everything?
Sometimes, I just prefer to be silent and not to alarm ppl surrounding me that I'm not fine.
I tried to talk to someone which I regarded the one most closest to me in my uni but the responded from her make me realize that I'm so sickening.(Yet, I never ever deny you in my life from the response you gave me but choose another alternative to go)
From that replied and that moment onwards, I told myself that I will never ever bother you anymore, which is something you don't even wanted to know.
This thing let me realize that friendship is just so fragile, and it comes and goes easily, who will ever be truth to you sometime is just so questionable.
I never ever differentiate any of my friends into categories cause I believe that I treated everyone equally cause every of my friends is just so equally important to me.
I never wanted to offense anyone but somehow rather I know that sometimes I just can't please everyone.
I know that, but I never ever wanted any repay, but just one simple thing, that is be true to me.
Let me have faith in friendship by acknowledging me as a friend of yours.
Life's not about the people to act true to your face. It's about the people who remain true behind your back.
Throughout all this things, mind grows mature is something that is undeniable. People always said that, when you at a certain age, you will grow and be considerate towards matters or peoples or to be worst, you will start to have a lot of worries that will never end, till the day of your last breath.
Whatever it is, I just hope that every pain that I went through will somehow rather let me gain something in return. It doesn't need to be visible or to be seen in second but at least, pls let me know that whatever I had done is worthwhile.
I do always reminding myself, no pain no gain!
So, I won't take things for granted, be it friendship or matters.
Ah, is another insomnia night as usual... but when this will come to an end?
God, I believe that you will certainly lead my way..

Recent Weekend

Clubbing session with besties and friends ...

 BBQ session ...

Last but not least, karaoke session ...

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Now, time to work more harder for FYP and final exam!

Confession of a "Useless"

Feeling so strange to type something here, not used to type at here at all cause all this while, I do blogging, but seldom in this blogspot anymore. Instead, in somewhere where I can really express my feeling more better.
Hmmm, a lot of things had happened but still I think most of the time I still in my dream land, not willing to wake up and I just seriously slacking a lot, is like been a month, I'm doing nothing at all!
Feel so bad to myself! Feel so bad to my family! Feel so bad to my friends! And feel so bad to my assignment mates also!
I've been not really serious in handling all the tasks, I don't think you all will read this, but still I think that I'm not responsible enough and I promise after this week, I will back to normal! Sorry to you guys ><
I just need some time and I really hope you guys will understand me and won't despise me nor give up on me!

Someone asked me what I want now, in 5 years time and in future...
By that time, I hesitated and paused for quite long, cause after something happened, I feel that I lost my pace, my direction and I just don't know what I want anymore!
I told myself, once I can write at here, means I will back to normal again and yup, I did!
I know is quite a long time but at least I success! Human ain't perfect anyway! I'm still learning to become a better person.
Thanks to the question, I guess I know what I want now!
I hope after this week, is a new start for me to explore more things yet to come in to my life!
Life is short, so, why not live life to the fullest?

To you, sorry for torturing you all this while, and because of my stubbornness, I forced you to take something that you can't even take it. Sorry for making you feeling hard and pain. Sorry for not allowing you to rest even when you wanted to. Sorry for not loving you! Sorry for torturing you! Sorry for making you tears! Sorry for the difficulty of breathing that I had caused you! Sorry for indirectly hurting you! Sorry for making you become weak! Sorry for making you become a useless person! Sorry for making you to become an annoying person in other's life! All this things is caused by me and I promise after this week, one by one will disappear!

Both cousin Abi and Ade are the best! They will always invited me for somewhere whenever it is possible.
Not wanted to disappointed them again, I accepted the invitation and I will say hello to PD this Saturday! Tomorrow gonna go KL and for the 1st time ever in my life, I'm taking KTM from Kampar to KL. Always wanted to do that, but time just now allow and finally I can do that tomorrow with my bestest friend in Uni, Shirley.

Though I know this and next week will be the most busiest week for me, but yet since I have make the decision, so I will bear any consequences. Probably because next Wed I will have one midterm and I hardly even do any revision at all! Assignments also haven't settled. That's why I feel so guilty for just leaving like that and have fun! Omg! I'm so bad! But, do not judge me and ever question my contribution towards my assignments!

As I said, life is just so short, why we just prohibit ourselves to do anything that we want?! Live life to the fullest, explore the unexplored, always be positive & optimistic and never give up! I'm always a tough one, now and forever!

Mindset corrected, is a relief!

Shit, I'm still awake although now is already 3am.
Heart felt more calm with the companion of Kevin Kern, 'Beyond the Sundial' and the late night talk with "someone". "Someone" that I will not imagine I could share so many things with.
Thanks Shirley for the wonderful song, it did bring peace in my mind, and I'm glad you always by my side whenever I'm down.
Time is the essence of everything, when 2 souls are meant to be with each other, it definitely clicked.
I'm still waiting as this is the thing I can do right now.
Forcing doesn't make things become better but eventually it will mess everything.
Whether it is worth or not, it doesn't matter as I'm true to my heart and my feeling.
Is not easy to maintain this positive feeling but well, I think might be as the age get older, one's thinking and perception will change to become more mature.
Hmmm, later have something very important thing that I need to do, hope I can do it well.
Hope the video commercial shooting run smoothly and hope we will have lots of fun cause it is a new experience for us :)
Anticipated for that too...

Penang Walk

I'm not feeling so fine, due to some personal matter, well just forgive me for the simple post of my last week visit to Penang. After all, I promised to blog about it. So, here it come...

We went to Kek Lok Si once after we had our breakfast in some random place, which I forgot the place, but I think it doesn't matter at all cause it is not the best delicacies we had so far :P

We went for the so-called best laksa in Air Hitam(marketplace down Kek Lok Si), correct me if i was wrong, ok? In my opinion, I think that the laksa is over-rated. Strictly in my opinion only! No offense, alright? Anyway, the sugarcane drink at the stall there is nice! Double thumbs up!

 Some random finger-foods

Then, I guess we went to the 'Sleeping God'. Forgive me for any wrong saying, ok? Btw, I used the word, 'I guess' cause it was already a week past's trip!

The girls

The guys

Nothing much to do at there, so we went out quite early compared when we were at Kek Lok Si. We found a rojak stall outside the temple, we bought it and we all love it :)

 

 Testing...

I've no idea why I looks so funny in the photo

I can't remembered where we went exactly after that, but I remembered we had they claimed the so-called best Ais Kacang which is located in New World Park. Because I'm not Ais Kacang's lover, thus I didn't got to taste it, but they said it was nice!

We went for the famous Cendol located, er... I have no idea where is the place, but I got the photo, luckily :P

Hope that you can find it based on the photo provided, if u want to taste the Cendol that I or should I said we all claimed is the best!

The next destination after all the food session should be Batu Feringghi. I don't swim much at there cause of phobia. Phobia of jelly fish. Yet, I still get myself into the water, luckily there wasn't any sea creatures that harmed me :P

Sixth former buddies :)

Aww~ So sweet! I'm so envy!

Btw, it was my birthday on the first day we went to Penang, thus my friends celebrated my birthday at Gurney drive. Thanks, my friend although it was a simple one :) I truly enjoy the time we spent together and is looking forward for another outing with you all :)

Thanks for the lovely present too!

That's the end of the 1st day in Penang. Guess I should randomly talk about the next day. We had breakfast at some random kopitiam, had durian near Balik Pulau, went to Queensbay Mall and last but not least, we had freaking cheap awesome seafood! Scroll down for some random photos. I'm sorry there wasn't any seafood photo provided although I did not miss to capture any seafood we had (roughly 8 dishes). Guess, Mr.Edwin miss to upload it into facebook :P

Yeay! :P

Alicia claimed she love to 'kopek' durian. Haha~

I'm loving it!

See, they looked so cool, btw, it was outside the Queensbay Mall and it is around 2pm and it was freaking sunny. I had no idea why we will take photos at there :P

So cool!

 

 We had seafood in Gee Seng :)

Me, after the seafood, so just don't look at my bloated stomach :(

Oh, yea, we went to Ghee Hiang too but unfortunately, all the biscuits were sold out, so we just had photo there.

 

All of the things, I miss Penang rojak and Char Kuey Tiao(at Kimberly street) the most! Looking forward to have it next 2 weeks as I will be back again to Penang for my society's trip

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Guess that's the end of the awesome trip that I had with my friends!

P/s : Will update my belated bday celebration at A-box soon!