Tears drop again after so long...
I wish to cry out loud for no reason.
I know I'm not happy, but what else can I do just to regain back the smile that is hidden for so long?
Mr. Confident, please stay with me, like forever...
Miss. Smile, please stick with me all the time...
Mr. Optimistic, I know I need you so badly...

Hmmmm.. too bad..

Hmmmm...
Ima got instinct to get this, thus I check my mail. Take note, I haven't check my mails for ages.
To my surprise, I did got it.
I know is not a big deal and fuss about it, but just too happy cause that the 1st time I leave a comment said that, I want to watch Orphan :p
and got myself invites with a pair of tickets to the premiere screening...
BUT,
too bad I'm not based in KL right at this moment,
which means I never can be going either :(
Hmmmm... too bad...

:(

When I was small, I wish I grown up and now, I'm an adult but I wish to turn back the times. As an adult, there are really many things to fuss about. Sometimes, I think I am over-reacting over some particular matters but I just couldn't help myself not to worry about it. And in the end, I kept thinking and stressing about, I pull myself so hard and sometime at one moment, I find myself couldn't breath. Really hard to breath and feeling so struggle. Once I worried about studies+exam and of cause the worry will have never ending until the day it finish. Then, there come about my little brother and now is my mum! I will not exaggerate the contents much as it won't help to solve problems. Maybe you are right, I should take medication, Ashlee. Or maybe it was all about me should keep myself loose and not worry over unpredicted things? Or maybe I should just don't bother everything that is within my control? God, please give me direction.


P/s: I think I should continue "Winter Melon Tale" before I really goes mad!