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My blog is so dead recently.
Yes, I'm free but is hard to get me updating my blog nor post some photos of current events.
I have tonnes of photos but seriously, I'm so lazy to upload, not only in blog but in FB as well.
Photos of vacation in KK, CNY'10, UMS'10, bobby's collection and lots lots.... Hmmmm~
Right now, I'm just waiting for my 4pm class and head back to TI after the class finish at 6pm.
Don't be surprise as you saw me back to Kampar on Monday and now you're hearing me back AGAIN to TI! Haha~ What to do, I just have classes from Mond-Wed ONLY!
Supposingly, I had planned to go Penang for TAO's hunting but due to some health reason, I need to get my ass back to TI.
If not, I scared my mummy will be over worried if she hadn't saw me ASAP!
Btw, if you're following me on FB, you will see that in my wall post statused that I'm worried and I hope for speedy recovering! Thanks for everyone's concern!
But, doc said I need 4-5 weeks times to recover.(Actually, is not about the breathing difficulty prob that I consulted with doc but yet is another thing which I don't feel to highlight here)
Cause is quite embarass lo~ HAHA ^^
Really glad that I have all my aunts & grandma, my sista and my dear Shirley to accompany me to doc!
Feels so touch!!! and my babe Ashlee for listening me when I'm so freaked out (you better just keep to yourself and don't tease me again!)
I think I need a nap now before my class or else I might be fishing later! Will try to update frequently and post more proper post with tonnes of photos(er, hope so)

P/s : Anybody just date me for some short vacation puh-lezz!

Bobby ♥

He never fails to make me laugh

He never fails to make me smile

  He never fails to cheer me up

 He never fails to grab my attention

 He never fails to act funny

 He never fails to act innocent

Mummy love him so much, so do I

Do you notice that Bobby is so happy?

Annoying entry

 Note : This entry might be annoying, just don't read or blame me after you have read if it does make you feel ain't good!

Midterms finally done but there are still 4 assignments waiting for us to be done.
Trying to rushing for it so we could have comfortable day without worries/stress.
For the sake of ENT & HRM midterm and HRM assignment, I had skipped 5 LECTURE class! is 5!
I don't feel good not because of worrying I didn't sign the attendance which may resulting bar for final but is the knowledge that I miss out, freaked me out as I'm not an intelligent students where I still need guidance and knowledge from lecturers.

I don't feel good today nor moody but there are something.
There are something that make me quite upset.
I've been blame by someone over something that is absolutely not my fault. I don't know how to exaggerate as to recall back, I think is ridiculous. Why on earth people will blame someone that has done nothing wrong?
For the sake of not calling somebody to wake up, I've been asked harshly and forced to see the "black" face. Hello, excuse me? I'm not your nanny! Nor you alarm clock!
Ok, to put in a simple way...
Did you ask me to wake you up at first? Think and recognize whether is my fault or not before talking so LOUDLY and MEAN to me!
I am human, I have feeling! Just because of something that not pleased you, I have to be treated like this? Please consider on other's feeling too!
Previously excited emotion just shrunk to the min lvl because of this.

As I said there are something previously, so this is the second part of what I felt / gone through.
 I'm trying to help up / to ease burden on you but I can feel that you are just avoiding me.
I mean to get things done but I could feel that you think I'm looking down on you by even my mere intention was actually to help you.(maybe is my only assumption, I "perasan" or whatsoever, but this is really how I felt)
You can't blame me for thinking something like this, but your actions could somehow rather makes me feel so.
Am I really too mean towards you? Or too demanding until you feel stress when dealing with me?
Friends, we've been friend since we get to know each other and get along real well but somehow, now it becoming so far. Far that I could see the possibility that you never wanted me to be your friend anymore.
I don't know. Mayb I'm too sensitive or what, but I really can't help myself thinking on that.
I don't wish to lost the friendship but it feels hurt to recall back everything that has happened yet you could just keep quiet. Maybe you scold/shout/yell/scream at me, I will feel better?
Or even to let me know I'm wrong if I do so?
As sometimes, I don't know what I had done that might actually offended you or could like now, SILENT~

Friends, I take this chance to APOLOGIZE if I bring hurt and grieve to you all! This is at least, something I can do or could make me feel better, perhaps~

Argh, Ashlee, tell me what should I do? Wish someone will at least in this moment, beside me hears my rants and even comfort me or wipe away my tears.
I just couldn't help myself and tears dropped! I'm such a useless that can't even control my fucking emotion.
Fucking bitch, yea! I remembered that, somebody said I'm fucking bitch!

P / s : I'm fine. I felt better after this.

Ranting again

I'm blogging now!
Yea, but doesn't mean I'm free now!
Tomorrow's the last mid-term and I don't have the strength to study, I don't know why.
I can sense tomorrow paper will be a disaster for me. I know I won't get good results for it too but I won't give up.

A lots of things happen recently, which is quite bothering for some of my housemate and me.
Maybe I'm the cause of all this trouble that had brought up, and I really don't understand why certain people can't just understand on others, put themself on other's shoes and thinks on behalf others as well.
Haigh, I just know that I have to keep silent and accept every M-16 that have shot towards me.

I had the most toughest time in this Wed that requires me and my groupmate to redo the whole assignment. YES, is from A-Z. You must have thought that I have the fussiest tutor and indeed he is! I miss going home on Wednesday and resulting me working all the day until the next morning Thursday at 9am and eventually I straight drove back to home. Is an awful day! Nevertheless, going home could make me forget about the stress that is never-ending for awhile and it helps when there are family and your cute pup beside you. And I miss them now!

I just dislike Kampar cause I feel so stress at Kampar facing assignments! Total of 4 assignments to be submitted on next week Friday and the last midterm for tomorrow! FOL kao kao!

Short update

I know my blog is mushroom-ing!
I don't wish too but tight schedule with classes, midterms & assignments really killing me!
Left 1 midterm on this Sat and 4 assignments to be done! FML kao kao!
Until this Week 8, we only manage to settle 1 assignment! I know that it is so inefficient!
I'm really tired and restless ever since coming back from CNY.
Finally, tomorrow I can go back for awile to catch up with my family and Bobby!
I miss them so much!!!

My Valentine's day

Just a short update on previous Valentine's day that is so happen to be the CNY 1st day!
I got mine celebrated too with a simple Sushi King meal with my beloved.
I got a gift too from him but unfortunately I don't have anything to give him.
Feeling so bad cause I couldn't give him what I want to give him at first. Sigh~

Aww~ Isn't this so romantic?

Blue color thingy when it is switch on, with the wordings by him

This has become my profile picture cause I think I somehow looks slightly slimmer there :P

 I requested him to fill in something that I think is missing.

Guess what is that?

 Ta daa~ Done! I ♥ it, thanks Dear!

 Flipping...

and flipping...

This Valentine's day thanks to the CNY, if not I don't think we will be able to celebrate it together after 2 years didn't celebrated it.

Although it is simple, but it is more than enough for me.

I hope we will able to celebrate it as years come by...

Lonely V-day eve!!!

Everything is OVER

I can't tolerate this anymore!
From now onwards, everything is OVER!
Friendship that has been built since roughly 2 yrs back now is OVER all because of you!
I thought to mend things back although I needn't to do so cause literally this things doesn't affect me at all but I cant just stand still and see everything that is happening so uncontrolable without viewing my opinions.
I tried to talk properly with you but you responded like a "mad bull"!
What's the point with that?

Tell me, in your heart, we are just bunch of passerby in your life that gave you a lot of problems and troubles? Or we are the one who are just only kept asking from help and ignoring you when you need us for help too? If you DARE to say yes, you just come in front of me and tell me face to face!

But, I think you will not ever have the guts to do so!

I tell you one thing, you help people only because you want the rewards in return, you are such a bastard! Helping others with your sincere heart does matter.
Please remember that you can choose NOT TO HELP
AND please don't complaint later only after you help!

 

I don't think counting with you here will change anything that is happened especially when wanted to count how much HELP does you owe us? Because from the beginning, we didn't even want to mention everything that is a past tense anymore!

The last thing I can't tolerate is the "FUCKING BITCH" that you gave me in this 2 years ++ friendship!

NOW I REALIZE I SHOULD GIVE UP ON THIS FRIENDSHIP!

EVERYTHING DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE!

Running away...

Im running away...
Running away from reality, mixed emotion, yet I couldn't find a place to neutralize back my fcuking emo emotion.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
And it seemed that Jason and Shirley will be just as emo as me, perhaps.
Putting hope and faith in "someone" that they trust, and only realize that "he/she" changed.
I don't know how to respond too as I already been haunted by how the way he/she treated me back 2 weeks.
Literally, I'm not emo because of him/her but his/her attitude really make me piss off.
Back to my case, I run away.
I drove as fast as I could with the rain accompanying me, just like how it reflects the tears inside my heart. Soon, without me realize, the tear drops profusely.
I don't know why but I just know that I'm not happy.
I don't know who to talk to.
I don't know who to find.
All I know, I need to be strong to keep on driving so that I can reach where I should go.
There was a car full of malays keep on looking at me and slow down the car and I'm so scared that they will try to stop my car because I was just alone!
I speed and drove to the maximum so I can just far away from them.
I know it is dangerous to be driving alone especially at night but I'm just alone.
Nobody will ever understand my feeling, including you, perhaps.

 I'm just as emo like Bobby

Joker for the day

Symptom : A guy that is so desperate of getting a girl

Impact : Cuckoo and bullshitting alot!

Conclusion : Can any girl out there just can bear with him? Tell me if you are the one!

P/s : Damn piss off by him to the max! Fullstop